I've Got Some Issues That Nobody Can See

"I've got some issues that nobody can see
And all of these emotions are pouring out of me
I bring them to the light for you
It's only right
This is the soundtrack to my life, the soundtrack to my life" -Kid Cudi

So goes the refrain to Kid Cudi's "Soundtrack 2 My Life". Preceded by the line "But they all didn't see, the little bit of sadness in me, Scotty". 

I was depressed for a while recently. I realized didn't like the feeling. Depression and Anxiety are part of me. There is nothing I can do to avoid this double threat to my happiness. It's just something I have to cope with. Part of that coping is recognition. Part is action. The latter is the reason for one of my great shames. I tan.


My depression is largely due to Seasonal Affective Disorder. There isn't enough sun in the winter, so I get blue. I know it's bad for my skin, but my overall well-being comes first. As a vegan I get plenty antioxidants, and besides I'm not going for day glow orange.It also helps me be more confident and assertive, which helps the anxiety. A win-win of sorts.

But, back to the title of the post here. One of the things I love about that song is that it reminds me that everyone has their baggage. Friends share your baggage, after all it's heavy and you have places to go. There is no way you can carry all that shit on your own. Some friends get more baggage because they are stronger emotionally.

I won't even get into the romantic baggage. Speaking of which I started dreaming when I sleep again. No good can come from that.